Ugh, I slept with a guy I don't know well... am sleazy?

Of course your not a slut. Thats really sad though. I hope you are ok. I sort of did the exact same thing when I was 23. A lot of guys are total idiots. I don't know what else to say since I don't know you and don't know him but I advise you not to try getting into a relationship w/this guy or even be his friend. He probably doesn't deserve you. I should've went to a shrink when I decided to have sex 3 yrs. ago but couldn't afford one or know who to pick and was to embarrassed to tell anyone anyway. But everybodys different. I mean you might not need to go to a shrink. I was mentally not doing great even before I did what I did and then afterwards I cried everyday and stopped eating and was acting generally bizarre for a while. But your not me. You should go to a gynocologist to get the hpv vaccine since its transmitable even if you did use a condom. Just get the vaccine, I don't think you need to get the exam, don't worry, your vaginas not going to fall out or anything, contrary to popular belief about going to a gyn as soon as you hit puberty. I still haven't gone and I'm fine and the guy I had sex with was nasty. You'll probabley get a yeast infection though, having sex does that. I had one for a couple days and was so nervous since I didn't know why I was so itchy but it went away and I've never had another one, but I should've got the cream thats sold for it. I did take a million showers afterwards which probabley helped. People are mean and will say dumb things, don't let it get to you because they don't know you. Sometimes I run into people who I use to work with & I know they must think Im like some skank from a TV show or that Im dumb, even though my IQ is 141 and I can have any job I want. Its retarded, I will never have sex again and I never even kissed anyone before or went on more than 2 dates. Ps. Its not hormones, people are- especially woman- more complicated than that. Hormones effect stress levels and pms and tons of other things, mostly in a very small section of the brain called the primitive brain. The reason we seek out relationships isn't because we're horny and can't resist some primal urge. Otherwise, everyone would lose their virginity in junior high, boys maybe even a little earlier. There is a lot of pressure from our culture to have sex before your even 18, most people have not found the right person or are not ready. There is so much for woman to know about sex and I don't mean porn. Right now you probably don't feel like you thought you should feel after having sex but I'm telling you, its not the end of the world. Its a big sucky deal for everyone, your not alone. Sex usually isn't all that great the first time or couple times you do it with someone, especially if its the wrong someone and your still a kid. Some time way into the future you'll date a real man and almost forget this whole mess ever happened.